The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) Hillsong, 2013
Wow! The Lord has really used this song to minister to me the past month. Since we got to the field, it hasn’t been easy. But it has been worth it. It has been a year now that we’ve been without a home, and the longest we have ever stayed in one place is two months. On any given day my emotions can range from being on the mountain top to the lowest valley. It has actually surprised me how they fluctuate. I am learning more and more how I have to set aside my emotions and find my joy in the Lord.
I am discovering that being obedient to the call is more than just going to the field. It’s keeping the faith that’s the most difficult part of the test. And we are being tested here in Africa. It’s hard to keep my head above the waves some times- when the days are long and it seems as if the girls have been crying or complaining all day long. When I am struggling to learn language and it seems I’ll never get it. When I hear yet another heart-wrenching story of how an African child has endured more hardship in their young years than I ever have in my entire life. When I’m digging worms out from my body. When Selvin and I are being harassed by police on a daily basis. Being threatened to be shot by the military or enduring horrible, head pounding road conditions to get to our people group a mere 3 hours away from where we’re currently living. Being taken advantage of (with money) because we are “kauja” (white). When we are faced with life threatening situations and fear grips me....my faith MUST stand no matter what the situation and circumstance.
It’s days like this, really every day, that I have to remind myself. I am His! That will never change. Nothing or no one can ever take this away from me. The Lord has NEVER failed me and He won’t start now. So I pray every day, even moment by moment, Spirit lead me. I am calling on Your name, my Jesus! Take me deeper in my walk with you. Make my faith stronger. I am begging you, strengthen me. Help my trust to be without borders. Help me to believe that nothing, absolutely nothing is impossible with You. Help my feet to not wander and my eyes to stay focused on You.
Oh Jesus, my Jesus! My soul will rest in Your embrace.
For I am Yours.
And You are mine.
